Realize.

I just realize that everything is out of place and what I was doing is so wrong :( I've been hurting a lot of people in my life. My boyfriend, My best friends, My Friends and My family. I tried everything just to make sure that I will be the best as I can be but I'm still going on the wrong path. I keep on disappointing them and I hate myself for doing that. I hate it cause sometimes I know that what I was doing is wrong but still. I kept on doing it. I kept on hurting people that I love. I tried doing everything just to prove myself that I can change and be the BEST person as I can be but nothing happened. I can't change myself in a way that I want it to be. I did a lot of bad stuffs in the past and I regretted it so much. I have learned a lot of things that helped me to realize what's wrong & what's right.


Growing up is really hard for me. Specially when it comes on making decisions. Good thing I have people around me that is always there whenever I needed someone. I hope that someday/somehow I can start being the new person that I want for me. I can't stand seeing people that I love is getting hurt because of me. It hurts me twice as much as I hurted them. I wish I can start changing today. I know that it's NOT gonna be easy for me but i'll try my best though. I know that what I am doing is good for me & for everyone.


Zsade(: